How we would describe a joy?
For me I could not. I would feel it only. It’s true kids holding all world joy in their smiles. It’s true that once you leave you childhood you miss the joy. It’s true that every time we grow up, unknown fear growing with us, and take it from us. And it’s true inside anyone there’s a child ready to awake again.
So, excuse me friends, if I was a bit childish with my daughter during her birthday. Judge me or not, it makes no difference with me. But to be honest I was having fun the same way my Athena did. We were screaming together, shouting all out loud together, and in the end we made unforgotten day ever!
and that’s what we said every year. Because I know, one year, my child will grow up, and her fears grow along with her. The same fun, the same joy, we will miss again.
We recognize ourselves when see it through a mirror, then we forget it quickly, another awaken happened when we see our pictures, but the same way we forgot ourselves again. I think Nietzsche said that once, and I believe it’s true as well!
I remember earlier in my beginning of photography (don’t be confused, I will always Amateur) I was doing some series and call is along side the bridge, earlier before I start driving. It was wonderful days, I keep my cam (digital/DSLR) with me all the time. But now days too lazy, and very little time to fix any photo. So the dust covered my DSLR. However, mobile cam doing good job, but less fun than DSLR. I think the more we get tired to get something, the bigger chance to felt it all, and appreciate the moment of results. Mobile’s cam now making everything more easier, and with my DSLR, it was much difficult. No one was suspect the time the effort to get one good shot. I was running everything in manual. Even the lens I got not working with auto focus, and the most annoying thing it was that I only like the natural light, I despite the “fake” lights from flashes. Probably this believes crossed my life through reading experience, from a book or two, or through the experience I faced from dim lights, and how we shuts off windows and prevent sunlight enter our life, all this because of “virtue” !
I drifted away like always!
This photo taken while jogging, here’s I admit nothing good but your mobile to capture such an expected scene. Road was in my left, so I’m expecting drivers passes me and says, what a crazy fella ! 🙂
It’s very few times that we felt the autumn here, therefore I want this to be remembered…
I will always wonder, how’s my Athena will see her photos…
June 25, 2017 Ash Shifa – Taif.
On a family trip to Taif. I knew the first day will be the longest day on that trip! But, memories most of the time works somehow on a way we can’t expected, I mean when I come to remember that long day, I knew for sure there were things I hate and make it longer than a regular day, I remeber only the feeling but always failed to remember the event. Only some good memories remains in mind. I imagine that everyone are same like me. Which kind great thing, although I would like to keep as well the bad one.
My sister that day called me twice to visit one area where the silence cover it. I was too busy to just listen to here. Then later, when I was fully exhausted I got care less, and not interested to do anything, so I went to see what my sister want to show me, and I was amazed. A small place, where abandoned house, some garbage, and one tree cut, broken door as well. All this human touch, abandoned for years, not stopped nature life conquer it. After my sister, wife and nephews went out and left me alone. I noticed the bees, flys, and spuders. Also suddenly bugs comes from the ground after nephews rumpus. It was a bit scary thing 😅
So, I was too tired to use my Nikon, so I usedmy mobile Huawei P9 Plus, and when I assure I took many photos from many angles, I flew away.
Nature life is amazing, but when we are ignorance about it, we end up sacred from being hurt. From this certain point, humans proof they are truly vicious and merciless.
How many life ended over these kind of ignorance?!!
Al Mukalla – Yemen, 2013
I couldn’t sleep at night, my new journey is about to end. The next day I have to leave my wife, we just married, nothing was right !
I took my gear nearly 5:00 AM, and leave the room, and go back of hotel. There’s a beautiful shore setting there, I didn’t know what I might found, so I pull all my equipments. Between many good photos I took, this one was interested me more.
In a long walkway along the shore, build I believe for fishers, I wash the crabs running front of me, too fast to catch. The I Saw the boats out for fishing, and there’s one boat above all, sailing lonely. I noticed no fishers run near to him, and I assumed it’s a place where there no fish in it at all. In somehow remind me with the story for Hemingway; Old Man And The Sea. How this fighting the power of the nature and trying to conquer it.
I hope he not end up like the story 😞
P.S to myself: you were also that day empty and lonely. You were same like this fisherman. Seeing yourself against the world !
I went many restaurants, they got really beautiful decorations, but I found whatever the one got the most beautiful decoration failed to present a decent food, however the less decoration in the restaurant the more food are good.
This one took in Makkah. I loved the photo frames, wish I could make the same in the apartment.
One of the challenges I have with Athena, is how I can motivate her to be a reader like me.
I start loving reading in very late age, as there were no family member to motivate me which she also starts late as well. I remember one time I was reading a serial science fiction stories in weekends only. It was interesting stories so I was able to finish one book daily. My father suspicious that probably having some sexuality topics among it so he took it from me and later on band it. Although he was a reader, but suspicious it’s a common act among the family, in order protecting the children from outer world. From that time till around 8 years I left reading, then I come back when my sister gave me Dostoevsky “Brothers Karamazov”. As of now I have over 1200 books among my collection.
Here Athena take one book for Joyce and set next to me and open the book and act like her father 😊❤